hey you crazy deviant world. I have finally gotten back in the swing of things, and though i'll be really busy with my double major and double minor in the next 4-5 years, i fully plan on doing my best to actually post stuff and look at all the great work on this site. well, that's all i guess. have a fantabulous fall all!

So, i performed at our school's talent show recently and a friend of mine taped my act for me and i posted it on youtube. so if anyone wants to see it, it's not horribly awful! it is a little blurry to start with, but it gets better...


EDIT: the link didn't really work, but if you go to youtube and look up "hotemper21" "out of love" and it should come up!

ok, so i just got tired of looking at the shootings journal. but i do hate snow! especially when a ton drops overnight and yet there is no snow day, as far as i'm concerned, that is the only thing that snow is good for.

so, ok, update on my life i guess. in the past two months i have:

gotten in a car accident (don't worry, i didn't get hurt)

turned 18 (same day as the car accident)

smashed a marijuana pipe, belonging to my ex, with my best friend's dad's crowbar (and it felt good!!!)

kicked ass at our school's talent show

went on a cruise to the Bahamas

and various other things that will most likely be added in here when i have time.

wow. this still hardly seems real. did you know was virtually impossible to use your cell phone in Omaha today? so mny people were calling the people they knew to make sure they're ok. Isn't that great? yeah, the shootings are horrible. but at the same time, look at how people have reacted...my family recieved calls from relatives all over the country asking if we are ok. they didn't even call for Thanksgiving! it's pretty funny actually... it reminds me kind of how a lot of people see God. now i'm not a really religious person, but i was raised Roman Catholic for all of the almost 18 years of my life, so i have had time to observe some things. Like how the time when a "believer" is most likely to call on god is when something bad happens. People who haven't been to church in a year will drop to their knees and remember that God exists in a second if something horrible is happening to them. But when life is going well, who thinks to give thanks? not many. well, it's kind of hte same with people now. they are shocked by the fact that people have been killed by other people, but they're also excited and curious. so, whether they are genuinely concerned for your safety (because of course of the thousands of people in Omaha, their relative must be one of te eight who died), or they just want a firsthand account, people always come out of the woodwork when disaster strikes. i pose a question...did anyone call the house of hte person who did it? did anyone bother to check up on him/her, to see if they were all right? people do things like this for a reason. maybe if one person had bothered to say good morning once in a while the poor guy wouldn't have felt the need to kill others and himself in a public place. it's scary to think, i could have met this person. i could have been one more person that considered him/her invisible. kind of makes you notice things, doesn't it?

i just found out that not only was i accepted to Nebraska Wesleyan University, but i will recieve a Board of Governor's Scholarship upon attending! $42000!!! and thats just for my ACTs! i auditioned for music scholarships as well, but haven't heard back yet... still, very excited!!!